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[B&#7841;n c&oacute; &#273;ang h&#7841;nh ph&uacute;c?]&ldquo;H&#7841;nh ph&uacute;c l&agrave; g&igrave;? Bao l&#7847;n ta l&uacute;ng t&uacute;ngH&#7887;i nhau ho&agrave;i m&agrave; ngh&#297; m&atilde;i v&#7851;n ch&#432;a ra&rdquo;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;(&ldquo;B&agrave;i th&#417; v&#7873; h&#7841;nh ph&uacute;c&rdquo;, D&#432;&#417;ng H&#432;&#417;ng Ly)S&aacute;ng s&#7899;m ng&agrave;y ch&#7911; nh&#7853;t, c&#361;ng l&agrave; ng&agrave;y duy nh&#7845;t t&ocirc;i &#273;&#432;&#7907;c tho&aacute;t kh&#7887;i b&agrave;i v&#7903;, tr&#432;&#7901;ng h&#7885;c &#273;&#7875; v&#7873; nh&agrave;. Bao ni&#7873;m vui ch&#432;a k&#7883;p t&agrave;y gang th&igrave; l&#7883;ch tr&igrave;nh, deadline d&agrave;y &#273;&#7863;c &#273;&atilde; k&eacute;o t&ocirc;i &#273;i. M&#7897;t m&igrave;nh b&#7855;t xe ra H&agrave; N&#7897;i cho b&agrave;i ph&#7887;ng v&#7845;n quan tr&#7885;ng, t&ocirc;i ch&#7881; mu&#7889;n v&#7873; nh&agrave; th&#7853;t nhanh, nh&#432;ng l&#7841;i ch&#7859;ng mu&#7889;n chen ch&uacute;c trong &#273;&aacute;m ng&#432;&#7901;i x&ocirc; b&#7891; ch&#7901; xe bu&yacute;t. M&#7879;t m&#7887;i. C&ocirc; &#273;&#417;n. Tr&#7889;ng r&#7895;ng.T&ocirc;i lang thang kh&#7855;p c&aacute;c h&#7867;m nh&#7887;, c&aacute;c ng&otilde; ng&aacute;ch c&#7911;a b&#7909;i b&#7863;m &#273;&ocirc; th&agrave;nh, v&agrave;, ngh&#297; v&#7873; m&#7897;t th&#7913; xa x&#259;m g&#7885;i l&agrave; h&#7841;nh ph&uacute;c.&#7914;, &#273;&atilde; bao gi&#7901; b&#7841;n d&#7915;ng ch&acirc;n l&#7841;i gi&#7919;a m&#7897;t kh&#7855;c &#273;&#7901;i s&#7889;ng &#273;&#7875; chi&ecirc;m nghi&#7879;m, m&igrave;nh c&oacute; &#273;ang h&#7841;nh ph&uacute;c?...T&ocirc;i b&#259;n kho&#259;n, m&igrave;nh c&oacute; th&#7921;c s&#7921; h&#7841;nh ph&uacute;c v&#7899;i vi&#7879;c h&#7885;c tr&#432;&#7901;ng Chuy&ecirc;n v&agrave; d&#259;m ba gi&#7843;i nh&#7845;t, c&oacute; vui v&#7867; v&#7899;i v&agrave;i con &#273;i&#7875;m 9, 10 v&agrave; l&#7901;i ng&#432;&#7905;ng m&#7897; t&#7915; b&egrave; b&#7841;n, t&ocirc;i c&oacute; &#273;ang m&atilde;n nguy&#7879;n v&#7899;i nh&#7919;ng d&#7921; &aacute;n l&#7899;n m&agrave; m&igrave;nh tham gia? Kh&ocirc;ng, kh&ocirc;ng h&#7873;.&nbsp;T&ocirc;i ch&#432;a bao gi&#7901; h&#7841;nh ph&uacute;c v&igrave; v&agrave;i l&#7901;i khen &#273;&#7847;y ganh t&#7883; t&#7915; ng&#432;&#7901;i l&#7841;, ch&#432;a bao gi&#7901; m&#7881;m c&#432;&#7901;i khi nh&igrave;n nh&#7919;ng con s&#7889; ch&iacute;n m&#432;&#7901;i m&agrave;u &#273;&#7887;, ch&#432;a bao gi&#7901; lo l&#7855;ng hay th&#7853;m ch&iacute; quan t&acirc;m v&#7873; bu&#7893;i h&#7885;p ph&#7909; huynh- n&#7895;i &aacute;m &#7843;nh c&#7911;a bao &#273;&#7901;i h&#7885;c tr&ograve;. Th&#7871; nh&#432;ng, t&ocirc;i ch&#7859;ng th&#7875; t&#432;&#7903;ng t&#432;&#7907;ng n&#7893;i c&oacute; con s&#7889; 7 x&#7845;u x&iacute; n&#7857;m tr&ecirc;n trang gi&#7845;y, &#7913;c &#273;&#7871;n ph&aacute;t kh&oacute;c khi b&#7841;n b&egrave; &#273;&#432;&#7907;c th&#7847;y c&ocirc; thi&ecirc;n v&#7883;, th&#7853;m ch&iacute;, m&#7897;t l&#7901;i tr&aacute;ch m&oacute;c c&#361;ng khi&#7871;n t&ocirc;i suy ngh&#297; v&agrave; l&#7847;m l&#361;i &#273;i c&#7843; tu&#7847;n. T&ocirc;i th&#7845;y b&#7843;n th&acirc;n th&#7853;t &#273;&aacute;ng tr&aacute;ch, th&#7853;t v&ocirc; d&#7909;ng, th&#7853;t &#273;&aacute;ng b&#7887; &#273;i. Th&#7913; suy ngh&#297; ti&ecirc;u c&#7921;c &#7845;y c&#7913; gi&#7871;t t&ocirc;i m&#7895;i ng&agrave;y.M&#7895;i ng&agrave;y...H&#7895;n &#273;&#7897;n. Lo l&#7855;ng. S&#7907; h&atilde;i.&nbsp;T&ocirc;i kh&ocirc;ng bi&#7871;t, kh&ocirc;ng th&#7875; n&agrave;o hi&#7875;u n&#7893;i, t&#7841;i sao l&#7841;i lu&ocirc;n mang c&#7843;m gi&aacute;c t&#7897;i l&#7895;i trong ng&#432;&#7901;i m&#7895;i khi l&agrave;m m&#7897;t &#273;i&#7873;u g&igrave; &#273;&oacute; kh&ocirc;ng ho&agrave;n h&#7843;o. T&ocirc;i kh&ocirc;ng mu&#7889;n l&agrave; l&#7899;p tr&#432;&#7903;ng g&#432;&#417;ng m&#7851;u. T&ocirc;i mu&#7889;n l&agrave; m&#7897;t h&#7885;c sinh b&igrave;nh th&#432;&#7901;ng, th&#7853;m ch&iacute; c&oacute; ph&#7847;n ngh&#7883;ch ng&#7907;m, c&oacute; b&#7841;n b&egrave;, c&oacute; k&#7881; ni&#7879;m, c&oacute; h&#7891;i &#7913;c thanh xu&acirc;n. T&ocirc;i kh&ocirc;ng mu&#7889;n l&agrave; h&#7885;c sinh &#432;u t&uacute;, t&ocirc;i mu&#7889;n c&ugrave;ng c&aacute;c b&#7841;n ch&eacute;p phao, l&agrave;m b&agrave;i t&#7853;p th&#7875;, &#259;n v&#7909;ng trong l&#7899;p,.. d&ugrave; ch&#7881; m&#7897;t l&#7847;n. T&ocirc;i kh&ocirc;ng mu&#7889;n c&#7855;m c&uacute;i trong m&#7897;t m&#7899; h&#7895;n t&#7841;p nh&#7919;ng con s&#7889;, con ch&#7919; hay trong nh&#7919;ng l&#7899;p h&#7885;c th&ecirc;m &#273;&#7871;n t&#7853;n &#273;&ecirc;m khuya. T&ocirc;i mu&#7889;n &#273;i ch&#417;i c&ugrave;ng b&#7841;n b&egrave;, l&agrave;m d&#7921; &aacute;n, tham gia t&igrave;nh nguy&#7879;n, hay &iacute;t nh&#7845;t l&agrave; tho&aacute;t kh&#7887;i b&#7889;n b&#7913;c t&#432;&#7901;ng c&#361; k&#297;.&nbsp;&ldquo;C&oacute; nh&#7919;ng ng&agrave;y n&#7857;m l&#7863;ng y&ecirc;n gi&#7919;a tu&#7893;i tr&#7867;, r&#7845;t mu&#7889;n &ocirc;m ch&iacute;nh m&igrave;nh v&agrave; n&oacute;i l&#7901;i xin l&#7895;i ch&iacute;nh b&#7843;n th&acirc;n m&igrave;nh&rdquo;. T&ocirc;i m&#7879;t m&#7887;i, &#273;&ocirc;i l&uacute;c g&#7847;n nh&#432; l&agrave; qu&#7925; ng&atilde;, hay l&agrave; b&#7845;t l&#7921;c v&agrave; tr&#7889;ng r&#7895;ng. Ng&#432;&#7901;i ta b&#7843;o, &ldquo;h&igrave;nh nh&#432; ng&#432;&#7901;i tr&#7867; ch&#7859;ng m&#7845;y ai vui v&#7867;&rdquo;, &#7915; th&igrave;, ph&#7843;i ch&#259;ng l&agrave; nh&#432; v&#7853;y?Tu&#7893;i tr&#7867; m&agrave;, ...T&ocirc;i kh&ocirc;ng c&oacute; m&#7897;t gia &#273;&igrave;nh gi&agrave;u sang, kh&ocirc;ng g&#7863;p nhi&#7873;u may m&#7855;n m&agrave; &#273;&ocirc;i khi c&ograve;n l&agrave; b&#7845;t h&#7841;nh. T&ocirc;i t&#7915;ng b&#7883; ch&ecirc; c&#432;&#7901;i v&igrave; sinh ra &#7903; m&#7897;t l&agrave;ng ngh&egrave;o xa t&#7881;nh, b&#7883; m&#7881;a mai v&igrave; gi&#7885;ng n&oacute;i qu&ecirc; m&ugrave;a c&ugrave;ng nh&#7919;ng t&#7915; ng&#7919; &#273;&#7883;a ph&#432;&#417;ng l&#7841; l&#7851;m. T&ocirc;i &#273;&#432;&#7907;c nhi&#7873;u th&#7847;y c&ocirc; y&ecirc;u qu&yacute; v&igrave; h&#7885;c l&#7921;c, t&iacute;nh t&igrave;nh, nh&#432;ng c&#361;ng kh&ocirc;ng &iacute;t ng&#432;&#7901;i gh&eacute;t b&#7887;, ch&igrave; chi&#7871;t v&igrave; ch&#432;a m&#7897;t l&#7847;n ph&#7909; huynh g&#7885;i &#273;i&#7879;n h&#7887;i th&#259;m hay c&oacute; m&oacute;n qu&agrave; nh&acirc;n c&aacute;c d&#7883;p l&#7877;. Nh&#432;ng gi&#7919;a l&#432;ng ch&#7915;ng c&#7911;a tu&#7893;i tr&#7867;, c&aacute;i t&ocirc;i c&oacute; l&agrave; &#273;i&#7873;u kh&aacute;t khao c&#7911;a bao con ng&#432;&#7901;i &#273;ang &ldquo; b&acirc;ng khu&acirc;ng &#273;&#7913;ng gi&#7919;a &#273;&ocirc;i d&ograve;ng n&#432;&#7899;c&rdquo;. T&ocirc;i c&oacute; &#273;&iacute;ch &#273;&#7871;n c&#7911;a &#273;&#7901;i m&igrave;nh, c&oacute; s&#7921; t&#7921; do quy&#7871;t &#273;&#7883;nh con &#273;&#432;&#7901;ng v&agrave; cu&#7897;c &#273;&#7901;i s&#7869; &#273;i, c&oacute; nhi&#7879;t huy&#7871;t &#273;am m&ecirc;, c&oacute; m&#7909;c ti&ecirc;u s&#7913; m&#7879;nh, l&#7841;i c&oacute; nh&#7919;ng b&oacute;ng l&#432;ng th&#7847;m l&#7863;ng d&otilde;i theo ph&iacute;a sau &#273;&#7901;i, c&ograve;n c&oacute; g&igrave; &#273;&#7875; t&ocirc;i kh&ocirc;ng h&#7841;nh ph&uacute;c? &#7844;y l&agrave; gia &#273;&igrave;nh, l&agrave; &ocirc;ng b&agrave;, b&#7889; m&#7865;, l&agrave; anh ch&#7883; em, n&#417;i nh&#7919;ng g&#432;&#417;ng m&#7863;t &#273;&atilde; th&agrave;nh x&#432;a c&#361;. Hai ch&#7919; &#7845;y, bao l&#7901;i ca c&acirc;u ch&#7919; &#273;&atilde; d&agrave;nh tr&#7885;n ng&ocirc;n t&#7915; &#273;&#7875; ng&#7907;i ca m&agrave; sao v&#7851;n thi&#7871;t tha &#273;&#7871;n th&#7871;?&nbsp;&hellip;Tr&#432;&#7899;c m&#7855;t t&ocirc;i, &ocirc;ng c&#432;&#7901;i hi&#7873;n t&#7915; khi nghe lo&aacute;ng tho&aacute;ng ti&#7871;ng c&ograve;i xe, m&#7865; &#273;i ra t&#7915; c&#259;n b&#7871;p l&#7865;p x&#7865;p v&#7899;i &#273;&#7911; th&#7913; h&#432;&#417;ng v&#7883; qu&ecirc; d&acirc;n d&atilde;, b&#7889; ch&acirc;n tay l&#7845;m l&aacute;p k&#7871;t th&uacute;c gi&#7901; lao &#273;&#7897;ng b&ecirc;n &aacute;nh m&#7855;t r&#7841;ng ng&#7901;i khi tr&ocirc;ng th&#7845;y con g&aacute;i v&#7873;. &#7914; nh&#7881;, t&ocirc;i qu&ecirc;n m&#7845;t, m&igrave;nh c&ograve;n c&oacute; m&#7897;t m&aacute;i &#7845;m b&igrave;nh y&ecirc;n &#273;&#7875; tr&#7903; v&#7873; sau m&#7895;i cu&#7897;c h&agrave;nh tr&igrave;nh ki&#7871;m t&igrave;m v&agrave; kh&aacute;m ph&aacute; kia m&agrave;. &#7914; nh&#7881;, ph&#7843;i ch&#259;ng &#273;&oacute; l&agrave; &#273;i&#7873;u tuy&#7879;t v&#7901;i nh&#7845;t kh&ocirc;ng cho ph&eacute;p t&ocirc;i c&#7843;m th&#7845;y b&#7845;t h&#7841;nh (b&#7845;t c&#7913; khi n&agrave;o)?<figure class="image"><img src="/upload/files/B%E1%BA%A1n%20c%C3%B3%20%C4%91ang%20h%E1%BA%A1nh%20ph%C3%BAc_.png"></figure>

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